Everything Is Going to Be Okay
The loss of my marriage was devastating.
A double blow came the day after my dissolution was finalized and I knew it was time to share my truth here on-line.
The fear of possible on-line rejection felt like it might be too much to bear. I thought about all the negative comments I had received over the years, over petty things and I thought – if ever I was going to get some hurtful emails…now was going to be the time. I wasn’t sure if I could emotionally handle it but I knew that I had to hold this ministry with an open hand and trust God.
Deciding how much to share and how much to protect was like walking a tight rope. Since I had one goal, restoration of my marriage – I knew that less was more. So for various reasons, it was scary to hit publish on that post.
But then it happened…I stood metaphorically “naked” before you all and you wiped up my teary face, wrapped me up in your love and hugged me with your words – just like Jesus does.
Comments and emails and letters and packages came in expressing your love and prayers – enough to drown out the few painful ones I received.
I saw Christ in you all and I can’t thank you enough.
And now a year later I can say…
Everything is going to be okay.
I’ve always believed God would take care of me but sometimes when I’m all alone – a wave of fear sweeps over me.
Worst case scenarios flash through my mind.
But I know now, what I didn’t know then…no matter what…
Everything is going to be okay.
If you are going through the worst season of your life – I want you to know that I feel your pain. I know how scary it can be to face the unknown. I know what’s it’s like to worry about the future of your kids, your finances, what everyone is thinking or saying about you behind your back (and sometimes to your face), and what it feels like to wonder if you’ll ever stop hurting.
I remember one person telling me that my pain would pass – their exact words were “this too shall pass.” I thought, “NO WAY!” You don’t understand! My heart felt like it had been shattered into a million pieces and that was not just going to pass into thin air.
The tearing of one flesh — into two — was excruciating. It is NOT God’s design for marriage. Marriage is a covenant meant to be kept until death. And when my marriage prematurely ended – I suffered the pain of a death.
Only we were still alive.
And I had no clue how to live the “abundant life” while my heart felt ripped into two.
But then it happened…time passed. During that time, I saturated myself in God’s Word. I worked on controlling my thought life and prayed my heart out. I drew near to encouragers and compassionate people who were willing to take the time to help me heal. And I bought a slew of books on Kindle, I’m still working my way through.
It’s now been over 2 years since the day he walked out the door…and I’ve gone through many of the stages of grief: denial, anger, guilt, bargaining, deep sadness, and now I’m in the acceptance and hope phase.
Everything is going to be okay.
I know that might sound trite – but it’s not.
What has happened to my marriage is not good. It is painful and embarrassing and sad and scary but God.
God’s grip on me is tight – He is the rock at the bottom –when the bottom falls out.
He is my refuge and strength, a very present help in times of trouble. (Psalm 46:1)
And because he is my refuge and strength. Because I am trusting Him with my future. Because no matter how bad life here on earth gets I have the promise of eternal life in heaven…
Everything is going to be okay.
I mean – Everything is NOT okay. Life is not going as planned. I did not get the answer to my prayers that I wanted. I have cried tears of agony and pain and my emotional pain at times turned into spiritual and physical pain. This loss hurts more than these letters I tap on this keyboard can explain.
I can testify as a woman who has walked through the depths of pain and sorrow – God is faithful. And your outpouring of love has shown me God’s faithfulness as well.
A friend said to me this week, as I confided in her with some of my recent struggles: “Courtney, our God is bigger than this.”
And so if you are in a dark place today – this is for you:
Our God is bigger than the pain.
Bigger than the sorrow.
Bigger than the confusion.
Bigger than the circumstances.
And because we serve a big God – we can rest in Him.
If you are in a difficult place, this is your truth too…
Everything is going to be okay.
Fear not, for I am with you;
be not dismayed, for I am your God;
I will strengthen you, I will help you,
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.
Jesus loves you.
Keep walking with the King,
Thank you so needed to read this today..
Thank you. Please pray for me that everything will be good in my life. My name is Diane
I so needed this today. I too am going through a hard, dry place. I am dealing with my husband’s illnesses, caring for my mother with dementia, raising an emotionally disturbed adopted daughter, homeschooling the same daughter, babysitting my 2 year old granddaughter and her 2 month old baby sister…there is just no more of me left. But God. I like that. Without Him I know I will not survive this.
God bless you and keep you, Courtney. You are such an encouragement and inspiration to so many.
Hugs to you! It sounds like you are dealing with a lot right now! I have been through some similar circumstances so I can feel your pain! Life can overwhelm us, for sure! It seems as women we are always caring for and meeting everybody else’s needs. I pray that you can take some time for yourself, and just sit, read God’s word, pray and rely on God for peace and strength to get you through this season in your life! He will give you rest! I also find it comforting to listen to praise and worship music! I will be praying for you!
Love in Christ! Kay
Sweet Gina! Oh my goodness you have a very full plate.My husband has lived with a crushing in every sense of the word chronic pain so my heart aches for you. I am wrapping you up in a prayer blanket right now.Praying God will immerse you in His temder mercies and graces????
What a testemony! Wow, your pour out your heart for your readers. No matter how much it hurts to talk about it, you are putting others ahead of yourself knowing your post will help another woman. You are a beautiful person, inside and out. Many blessings!
Bless Your Heart, Courtney! That was Music to My Ears. I always send you and your children my Love and Blessings and tonight is no different. Sunnier Days are Ahead and Love is in the Air!!!!!
Your blog has been such a blessing to me!! I had a miscarriage Monday morning and this just speaks to my heart!!! Thank you so much!!
I’m so sorry. Praying for you right now.
Oh my dear…I’ve been there twice. Coincidentally, just yesterday my daughter picked up an old journal of mine and flipped through to where I had recorded my feelings after my first miscarriage. t was very emotional to step back into that painful time. I know the depth of your pain and confusion…wondering if it could have been something you did or didn’t do.
May God wrap you in His loving arms my dear and shower you with healing and peace. As Courtney said…it’s going to be alright. You’ll come through this…just cling to Him. <3
Your words reminded me of something I read. You truly see who somebody is not in the good times but in the “ bad” or challenging times. You have displayed such faith in God. I truly believe you will be happier than you ever dreamed possible.
Praying for you and your sweet kiddos!
Courtney, God knew I needed to see this post today. You see, our son has chosen a path not of God. He left us a note on his bed and left us broken and scared to death this very morning. He’s lied, he’s been deceitful, and he’s broken our hearts and the hearts of his little brothers.
I am terrified to sleep tonight without my child in his bed. I am terrified of the decisions he’s making. I am terrified that he may never come home.
He knows, He’s keeping watch over my child, He’s in control not me. I don’t want to walk down this road. I don’t want my family ripped apart. I don’t want to feel this pain. I want him home. I want him safe.
But God. He’s the only One I can cling to right now…and I am holding on for dear life. Please pray for our family.
Thank you, Phoebe ????
Prayers for your son and your family!
Thank you ????
Thank you So very much for your words. They are needed by myself and so many.
I needed this so much tonight, so thankful for your ministry and post. I am in the worst season and most pain of my life.
Praying for you!
I think of you often Courtney; and I’ll continue to pray for you and your family. ❤️
Love and hugs,
Yes. Yes, a thousand times. Still praying for you Courtney: for strength and grace and everything else of which you might have need. Your ministry has blessed me and helped me. Thank you.
Going through it right now and you’re right it is like a bereavement. The pain is unbearable at times but I am trusting that things will improve one day. Right now though I’m just so sad.
Praying for you!!
The part of your post that says “But God” reminds me of what we were discussing in our Bible Study a few weeks ago. We were discussing Ephesians 2:4 and the verse that says
“But God, being rich in mercy, because of His great love with which He loved us”
Our Bible Study leader kept saying how she loves those two words, but God. How true is that. To remember He is bigger than everything and anything that happens to us good and bad. But God.
I love that! I’ve used “but God” in my writing and speech with others, but haven’t thought of the correlation with that scripture. So powerful!!
I absolutely love you. I am so sorry you have had to walk this road, but I am so thankful you are clinging to the cross. Your faith and obedience to our father is encouraging to me.
Thank you Courtney for sharing your heart. I’m walking through the same pain.
So true, I would not wish your struggles on my worst enemy. I thank you for sharing this, what you’ve gone through and report that our faithful God has been with you through it all.
Blessings to you and your family.
But God. Amen ????
can’t imagine your pain….But God. He’s got this. I am not divorced but my marriage is in a family of 4 generations of divorce so i know it well.
Thank you for your post. For sharing your beautiful testimony of Restoration. God remains faithful all the time. I experienced a loss quite recently too. I had a miscarriage, we were happy to grow our family (we already have two daughters) and then this happened… It just catches you off guard. Your mind fills up with questions… And the pain, it’s so indescriptible…I also thought pain would never go away, but im glad it does. God is faithful enough to trade our sorrows for joy and peace.
“Our God is bigger than the pain.
Bigger than the sorrow.
Bigger than the confusion.
Bigger than the circumstances.
And because we serve a big God – we can rest in Him.”
Amen and amen!!! Thanks again
I’m so glad you were mostly encouraged by others during your hard time. Especially here. I appreciate your ministry so much and that you care about us too. You continually point us to remembering what a great God we have. Thank you Courtney.
Amen, life can only be better now. Take care of yourself and your kids God will do the rest.
Bless your heart! I too came to the same conclusion yesterday after a sleepless night. My husband just went through his 3rd cancer surgery in 18 months. The pathology on Friday from the third surgery was not what we had hoped. We have had to stay in the USA instead of returning to the mission field where we have served for 30 years. We have “lost” our overseas ministry: some days, it feels as if our hearts are being ripped in two as we grieve the loss of ministry, our overseas loved ones, the loss of health as we once knew it and facing yet another “not so good” prognosis. But…we will be OKAY. If God should call my husband HOME, it is OKAY. If He should leave my husband here for me to love for a while longer, it is OKAY. I am clinging to WHO God is as we walk this unexpected cancer journey.
I just finished listening through my library app to a 4 part fiction audio series “Seasons of Blessings” by Terri Blackstock and there is a character in a similar situation as a missionary, with cancer, and people coming to Christ because of it. I’ve never commented on a blog before, but just the chance if only this could be encouraging to you, I thought I’d share.
Prayers for your Courtney!! You will never know how much you have blessed me with your bible studies, posts, and videos. You are such an inspiration!!
I needed this today. My marriage of 17 years ended in November 2017. We had been separated for a year and a half. I struggle with feeling like a failure. It comes in waves. I know it’s not from God, but sometimes it’s hard to shake. So thankful for sisters in Christ, such as yourself, who are brave enough to share their stories and give hope to others.
Courtney, I too know the pain of a husband that walks out. He left for another woman (women). I begged him to come back, & he did. Several times. I lied to myself by saying it was for the children. I gave up my pride & accepted humiliation instead. I went thru this for at least 2 years before I said anything to anyone. One day I ‘woke up’. I decided that this was not what I wanted my children to think marriage was like. I wanted my son to know that it was not okay to act like his father. I wanted my daughter to know that this is not how a husband should treat his wife. So I kicked him out. That was 2009. He provided so little $$, that it was all I could do to pay the utility bills. The situation hasn’t changed. I am also a homeschooling mother. I made a commitment to not only educate my children, but to always be there for them. I have not had a job since 2000. I tried at least 4X to get a divorce, but he would never allow it. Finally, this past year, he decided he wanted to marry his girlfriend; so I finally got that divorce – it only took 8 years. I can’t tell you how many times I have had a whopping total of $2 left after paying bills to buy groceries for the 3 of us – for an entire month. But God. The cupboards nor the refrigerator were ever empty – Because God. I didn’t know about food pantries back then. Once, after telling my family about our separation, I was given some grocery gift cards for Christmas. Once a friend from church brought us $100 of groceries. My mother would bring us a few things now & then. But God. We never missed a church service – because God. There isn’t enough space to tell you all the ‘But God’ stuff in our lives. Currently, it’s still all I can do to get the bills paid – But God. He is more faithful than we could ever imagine. I remember when you wrote that post about your husband leaving. I had been following your blog for about a year or so. I knew how you felt & I knew it would be hard. But God. What a testimony you (& so many others) have – Because God.
Wow your testimony is an inspiration to me.
Courtney you are so wonderful! Your honest words bring tears to my eyes. Thank you for sharing your pain to help us all. Praying for you xxx
Thank you, I needed this today. It’s been about 9months since I went through something very painful and life changing I’m still struggling. Thank you for posting this.
Even in your sorrow, you bring hope to others. I am in the middle of my job being eliminated. Still working for the employer but uncertain what I’m going to do after March 1. This is exactly what I needed to hear. Thank you and God bless you and your family.
I needed this today!
Thank you for your heart here! Yours is the second message I’ve read/seen about everything being okay…one even included the song “You’re Gonna Be Okay” by Jenn Johnson (Bethel). Not sure if there’s something specific that God is preparing me for or if He’s just letting me know that He’s loving on me today! Either way, I’m grateful for His promise of love, peace, joy!
I needed this today, my husband has leukemia. Thank you for sharing your heart. ❤️
Thank you for sharing here. I’ve prayed for you in your heartbreak and sorrow over the last year and am glad to hear such an encouraging update. I’m going through a hard time too in my marriage so I needed to read these exact words today!
Thank you Courtney for the hope you give to many. We can embrace our pain and rejection, knowing that it is nothing compared to the one our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ endured for us. God will never leave us or forsake us. But we know that God will provide for the righteous. Our Merciful God is bigger than our problems. We mush continue to walk with our King.
POWERFUL WORDS, COURTNEY! I continue to pray for you and other Christian leaders who have experienced dark circumstances. I believe evil is trying to stop you, but IT DID NOT! You are powering through it!!!! This shows you were and continue to be sincere in your belief in Him. But God. Love it.
Thank you for sharing this word of Encouragement, God Bless
Came accross this quote . Held so true to my life!
My trials have grounded my faith in ways that abundance and prosperity never could
Courtny I contiue to pray for you. Your blog has been a great blessing to me.
I’m glad I found this post today. I am in an almost exact situation in a year and a half and just celebrated my son’s 2nd bday yesterday, def mixed emotions as I signed papers last week and just announced it to my extended family.
I have ups and downs but have that hope. Thank you ,
“Well” shared and continuing to pray for you and your family.
Love this❤ written from a place of experience…it is very inspiring. Thank you for sharing
Oh Courtney, thank you for sharing and for encouraging me to trust in the Lord. My heart grieves for you and for a similar heart ache I’ve been going through. No words to describe the pain. Your post encouraged me to keep on keeping on and believing that God is good and faithful even when my emotions are so painful.
This was the exact time I needed this laid on my heart. I need to Breathe in and breathe out and know He is by my side. So hard….
Courtney, I have prayed for you and the kids ever since you announced your divorce. I’ve been there, and I definitely admire your strength, your resilience, and your faith during this time. If my divorce taught me anything, it’s to rely on the strength of the Almighty God. Keep pressing on!
I haevn’t walked this path, but I’m a widow and I so understand the grief and excruciating pain of losing your spouse. They’re different and yet strangely similar. In fact, I didn’t know one other young widow, but I had walked with a dear friend through her unwanted and unexpected divorce and kept going back to all the lessons of that time. Time doesn’t heal but God sure can put a broken heart back together. Not the same; it will look different and if we will let God, it will look more like Christ. Praying for you and your children today.
Thank you…..He truly knows what waters we are walking through. Although its tough and I know this is just a beginning, I hold on to our rock, our Father in heaven. We are blessed because our Saviour in heaven, even during these troubling times. I trust that He os with us:)
And though others may forsake us..Our God never will.. It is painful..its death but in a different way..we grieve..and it changes us..
This site is encouraging..the good.bad and ugly is truth..and being real in this fake world is what needs to be spoken..The breaking up of marriages is no funny business…it leaves a destruction felt for years to come..
God lead me here at this moment to receive your words. August 25, 2017 my divorce was final. I too prayed for God to restore my marriage and mend my family. Never did i picture my life as a divorced single mom of twin boys. But it is my truth. God removed him for a reason. What I took as hurt was God leading me to something greater. Last week God literally showed me what my life would’ve been if the marriage would have continued.
When God removes someone from your life, don’t fight it. In time God will reveal to you the why- just continue to have faith in Him and His words.
Courtney, I’m so sorry you went through the fire of this kind of devistation and loss. I can’t imagine. But your openness, honesty and strength in Christ as your strength when you are weak has been a beacon of hope in the online world! You’ve showed so many people who the Hope and Strong Tower to run to is! I’m still praying for you and will claim that God will redeem all the locust have eaten from your life. He isn’t finished yet!!
Love and blessings,
Your words have beautifully expressed such a devastatingly hard situation that you have gone through (and still going through). Three close friends have walked this same valley and come out pure and radiantly reflecting Christ just like you. I have gone through another deep valley that I can’t even share publicly and if it wasn’t for God, I would not be able to go on victoriously. I love how God lifts us up out of our pit.
I am still mad at the devil about this and I still want a reunification for your family. It makes me very upset that this has happened and what happened to Mandy. It’s okay for me to be upset right? I literally cry over this when I think of it. I was one of your leaders for four years and it makes me mad what the devil has done.
YOU ARE AWESOME. THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR PAIN. I AM IN A SIMULAR SITUATION. HE HAS NOT LEFT YET, BUT WE ARE GOING THRU A VERY HARD TIME. IM PRAYING THAT GOD WILL HEAL AND UNIT US AGAIN COMPLETELY. THANK YOU, FOR I AM ENCOURAGED.
I know it is God who showed your blog today….I needed it!
After few months being separated to my husband, I discovered he was dating a new and beautiful lady. Even though I don’t want to set back our marriage with him, I feel heartbroken.
But I am so confident that God will never let me down even if now it is quite difficult to pass by this pain.
You are amazing! Thanks for being open to be used by God to help others. You sure encourage me!
You have thousands of online friends who appreciate you and who are rooting for you. Thank you for your blog and message.
I walked in your shoes almost 40 years ago and while I was a Christian, I had not learned the spiritual truths you already know. Even so…God sustained me. He looked at my hopeless state and began to mend my broken heart as I raised my child alone for the next 12 years. I am now married to a Christian man who has picked up the pieces of my broken life and been the father and grandfather that my first husband, who has now passed away, could never have been. God sees our life from beginning to end as one big picture. He is always there guiding us in the right direction because he sees the path ahead with the utmost clarity. Just follow his lead. Everything IS going to be alright!
Thank you again and again for your faithfulness to us, and to the Lord’s work!
Courtney may God continue to uphold you and gird you with wisdom and strength. You are loved…so very much. Thank you for continuing to minister to others…you are truly an inspiration! God bless you! <3
Courtney & Tashina,
I, too, went through a divorce that I never wanted, because my former husband chose wine, women & song. My Pastor and a Godly older lady friend gave me lots of Godly counsel. GOD was faithful through it all. My two children and I always had what we needed because GOD always supplied. One time we got a check from our car insurance company that said they were going through their files and realized that we weren’t getting a discount that we were supposed to be getting for power seatbelts (in the 80’s). They went all the way back to when we first got the car. Who knew? A seatbelt discount? GOD knew and the check came just when we needed it. GOD brought a wonderful man into our lives a few years after the divorce. He was a widower with two small children. We have been married for 25 years now. So, GOD took what seemed like a devastating loss at the time, to bless me with a wonderful husband and two more children and now grandchildren!
This is a beautiful post. <3
Thank you for sharing with us. hugs and much love.
Courtney – this morning God laid it on my heart to send you a note telling you I was thinking about you & wondering how you & your children are faring. Then I got busy with grandchildren. Then I took a break & looked for a quick study on some biblical truths I need to pursue & when I got to the end of the study, there was your name. ???????? So I searched & was grateful to find this update. God has been faithful in your healing process and the Great Comforter when the pain rises back up. Hugs & prayers to all of you, Cheryl
Courtney. Wow. I so needed this. I met you at She Speaks years ago and watched your ministry grow read your blog for years and assumed your life was perfect. I went through a divorce as well and actually stopped reading your blog because I had the big scarlet letter D (divorced) on my forehead:(
Your words in this post are true, everything IS going to be OK!
I got re-married last July! Although I still mourn the loss of my nuclear family…I have seen God move in ways I’m not sure I would have witnessed and could attest to personally without going through a divorce.
Some friends and I are going through “12 More Women of the Bible” and just watched your lesson on Esther. As we talked about Esther’s courage and faith, we also talked about yours. This lesson had been finished before your marriage ended and, little did you know how much you would need to rely on God in the following months. God is good all the time. He helps us through the deepest valleys. And, he will always use us in our weakness. Thank you for sharing your heart.
My heart hurts for what you are going through but I know God has you in his hands.
I want to share with you, what a complete blessing you have been in my life and the lives of some dear ladies.
I host a online bible study ministry called Plan Live Love Ministries and last year we decided to purchase your REst & Release Bible Study. I cannot tell you what it did for me personally plus all the ladies in our group. It changed my life. Its like after that study, I took a step up in my christian walk and began healing from many things in my past from people that hurt me and my child.
Now we just completed Ecclesiastes (today) and God never disappoints. His timing is perfect. I’ve never studied this book before and I truly believe timing is everything. I got so much from this that was perfect for me now.
You have such a special gift and your bible study workbooks are amazing. They are just what I need and many of these women, looking for more of Christ in their lives and how to apply what we learn.
Our group is already looking for the next one we want to do from you because you bless us through your obedience to God.
So please, take heart in knowing that so many of us are blessed by you and love you and hold you in our prayers. We pray blessings over you and your family.
Super Big Hugs from me and all the ladies of PlanLiveLove Ministry
We love ya!
This post depicts exactly aha I I am going through word for word. Thank you for this!
i’m glad that i have to translate your post for our Good Morning Girls for Balkan country. you are such blessing and it’s honor to be part of this ministries that Lord started through your blogging. your heart is open and true. than you for your oppeness.
i’m writing here because this precious sister leave this morning reply on your post and i translated it for you. she wrote:
As i read this story of your life, i see myself walking by your side, down the same path.
If anyone can understand what you are writing – then, it’s me; i went through all of that.
In fact, that season drew me so close to God and taught me to lean on His strength. Even in the worst moments I felt His help.
Our wonderful God can be a merciful and caring Father!
I learned not to listen to comments other people make beacuse none of them were in my shoes.
Real friends are here, they stay. The most important thing is not what other people think and say, but how God sees us! God can heal hearts and He knows what is best for us, that’s why I gladly read Psalm 91!
I wish you an abundance of God’s blessings!”
Hi beautiful one. I was absolutely struck by an amazing possibility as I read your post this morning. You might have gone through this tragedy…for this moment. For this post. For this word. Many people have written a comment, but there are so many more who may not. They may simply ponder. They may “go back” and look at your story. Then they might decide that if trusting God can get them through that storm, it can get them through their storm as well. One single solitary woman’s eternal life may be determined by this testimony! Bless you, sweet lady, and thank you for your faithfulness as you walk with the King!
God bless you Courtney. Your ministry is a blessing to others and we want the same for you. Praying for you.
Oh precious! I know this hard even two years later but to see God’s mighty work through you, is breath taken! As I read this I was reminded of Romans 8:28-29. “And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. For those whom he foreknew he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son, in order that he might be the firstborn among many brothers.”
Romans 8:28-29 ESV
“All things” and “to be conformed to the image of His Son” We can hold fast to His truth that though on this side of heaven in our fleshy bodies it will hurt but all things that take place in our lives is to conform us into the image of Christ! Holding fast to that is all we can do! Not trying to understand or figure out why! We know why! He won’t be don’t with us till He takes us home or returns but we can hold fast to these truths! Keep pressing in precious, He has you! Much love ❤️
I am so thankful someone shared this with me and you took the time and guts to be vulnerable enough to write it!
I’ll spare the details of my broken marriage as well, but I know the pain of praying over my marriage and not seeing the prayers answered the way I wanted. My divorce was final last month after a long separation.
Everything that you wrote was everything I have been living. The pain and grief, the doubts and confusion, the feeling of a death even though your spouse is in front of you. It’s all very real.
I praise God for drawing me even nearer to Him in my loss and thank Him for strong Christian women like you reminding me that we will be ok on the other side of this.
Keep on Sister!
I’m so sorry for what you have gone through MacKenzie.
Thank you for your encouragement.
Stay strong and always remember Jesus loves you! You are not alone.
Lots of Love,
God has an unbelievable way of providing just enough comfort and strength to get us through the hardest times. On June 16, 2011, my husband told me he didn’t love me anymore. Two months later I found out it was because he was having an affair. We ended up divorced. I was devastated. After all, I was the Christian in the relationship. I initially did not react to the the discovery of the other woman very well, but I can tell you the my ex-husband and I can at least go to our children’s graduation and weddings and it will not cause a scene. God is who got me through every stage and step. Many hours praying and reading the Bible.
Fast forward today…I have an amazing Christian husband and my family has grown to 3 additional children. It’s hard to believe the pain I felt going with the divorce to how happy I am now. I love that I now have God in the center of my marriage and family.
With God in the center of every stage of life, you can’t really go wrong.